This Tangled Web We Weave

I miss my shannon!!! Life is a bunch of fucking chaos! When will it all end already. I just want to live with no fucking drama for once. I feel like im going to explode!! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I am in a new relationship now. She is great! I am so happy with her. I have known her for a long time. We are pretty good friends. I hope this will last. Awwwww....she gives me butterflies...

I feel really bad because my sis has to watch my kids. I need to figure out something that I can do to help her. I don't want for her to be unhappy and depressed anymore. What can I do shannon? Tell me so that I can make you life better. Anything at all. I dont want for you to feel the way that you do. The Way that you write now reminds me of me when I was your age. I dont want you to follow in my footsteps,though a downward spiral of abyss. I lead a very chaotic life as a teen and I dont want that for your. Your better than that. I wish I had someone older than me who could have picked me up back then when I needed it. But your different, You have someone who cares about your welfare, MMMEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! I love you and want the best for you. xoxoxoxo

WTF is going on in this world. My dad's getting a separation, my soon to be ex husband is living in his car, and the mexican ladies who go to pick up there kids from my son's school are now toting around their kids in the freaking baskets on the bottom of the stroller like they are a freaking loaf of bread. How retarded is that? Well on a lighter note, we are going to see eva o tonight. I can't wait. I haven't seen her perform in about 10years. Yeeaaaahhh!
yummy!!!!!!!!!!

I am going to see my favorite band this weekend...SERAPHIM SHOCK...yeah. CHARLES EDWARDS IS SO FUCKING HOT...

I feel really bad because I know I have to put a big responsibility on my sisters shoulder's. I wish that there was a way for me not to have to work so that she would not have to watch my kids for me. I know at times it can be hard and overwhelming. I have no other choice. I know my mom is there at times but I know it is still hard. It makes me feel sad that I can't be there more at night though. I can't even tuck in my children to bed at night. I hate my fucking ex husband for making me have to do things this way. If only he would help me with child support. I woulnd't have to work so damn much. But I have to support my two boys on my own financially so I have to work my ass off. I am glad that I left him even though at times I feel prety lonely.Life is so damn hard sometimes. Sometimes I feel like i'm going insane. I miss my boy's so much when i'm at work.What can't life be easier? Oh well.

I can't wait until our 2 house warming parties....it is going to be lots of fun..I need to re dye my hair. I want to go home..work sucks..see you when I get home shanny..love you.. I am finally going to get to meet shannys friends who I hear sooo much about.

well anyways I am at work right now and am sick to my fucking stomach. I had a fever earlier but I took some tylenol and feel a little bit better. I can't wait until our house warming party's. I can't wait to meet my shannys friends who she thinks so highly of. We have to hurry up and finish the camera shannon so that we can develop the pics. I can't wait to see the hollywood pics. I had so much fun. Anyways I am going to make my list of things needed for the party. We still have to get our place in shape.

I am sooo fucking tired. So why can't I sleep? This is the 2nd night in a row that I have stayed up until about 5 am after getting home from work at 3am. What the hell is wrong with me? I think I am just stressed out by the everyday things in life. Oh well. Only 3 more days left until the weekend.. yahhh. I can't wait.

I can't wait until next weekend. I am going to take my baby sis shannon to see the covenant. Then we are going to go to starbucks and drink coffee until our heads explode. I decided it was time for us to go out. Everytime mom and I go out she has to stay home. So now it's our turn to have a sister outing day. I love you sis.